I should be over him already!  I should stop worrying about my weight.  I shouldn’t be so upset about that disagreement with my mom.  How often do you tell yourself you should act or feel differently than you do?  Judgement is a powerful force and seems to creep its way into the minds of successful and caring people by telling them there is one right way of dealing with things.  Both at work and within my social circles, I hear people criticize themselves because of the emotional space they’re in. Why are people so hard on themselves?

At the school where I work, I constantly hear teenagers say that they don’t talk to their friends or family about their problems because they don’t want to feel like a burden or be pitied.  They say that they don’t like to cry or that they should stay busy and not think about their difficulties.  I don’t blame them because at times these same people have sought out the support of a friend or a caregiver and been told either directly or indirectly that they should get over it.  Teachers often tell kids they have no excuse for missing homework assignments before hearing the student’s story.  Of course sometimes their stories are fabricated as an easy way out of their responsibilities, but what about the kid who was awake all night listening to her father beat up her mother in the next room?  If the teacher never listens, isn’t that the same as telling the child their feelings don’t matter?  I’ve heard stories of parents laughing at their children for crying.  That may seem extreme (and it is), but what about parents who never cry or express any emotional pain in front of their children?  Or what about parents who never ask their child how he/she is feeling?  These actions may have the same impact.

It seems like our culture doesn’t allow a space for emotional pain.  We seem to receive the message that emotions are a sign of weakness.  This idea is especially significant for men and boys.  Sure, we are given a few weeks or a month to grieve the death of a family member or the loss of a relationship.  But after that, people are expected to return to life as it was or at least stop “whining” about it.  After all, we slap on a disorder label if bereavement goes beyond the “normal” time limit.   Is this the result of a culture which emphasizes individuality over social support?  How do statements like “suck it up” and  “pick yourself up from your boot straps” impact peoples’ ability to manage emotions in their own ways?  Is the desire for immediate gratification reducing Americans‘ ability to slow down and accept their process?  When so much of American culture is focused on making money and gaining power, is there any room for feelings?

I don’t have the answers to those questions, but I’ll propose another question in response.  Does it work to tell ourselves or others to get over it?  If not, why do we continuously expect that result?  What is the impact of judgement on our well-being?  Judging can make the pain continue much longer than if there had been space to express feelings in the first place.  Avoiding feelings does not make them disappear, and it often increases suffering.  Telling someone that he shouldn’t feel something does not stop him from having that feeling.  It will most likely create distance in the relationship, and he’ll be less likely to go to you for support in the future.  Not allowing healing to occur on its own time can lead to an unending slew of consequences including but not limited to depression, anxiety, self-medicating, violence, and suicide.

There’s a Buddhist story that explains how life hits you with arrows, but some people are hit with additional arrows because of their responses.  Accepting the pain, attending to physical and emotional needs, and recognizing that everything is temporary can reduce suffering.  Ignoring or judging can increase pain, while showing compassion and acceptance will most likely help the healing process.  Thoughts and feelings pass like everything else, and kindness (even toward yourself) goes a long way.  Letting go of the should’s and giving yourself and others permission to cope as needed is the way to increase happiness, improve relationships, and accomplish your goals.

Although the problem of poor body image for teenage girls is not a new one, it saddens me to see that it’s not improving.  When I hear a beautiful, intelligent girl say that she cuts her stomach fat because she hates her belly, I feel outraged with our culture.  When a teenager tells me that no boys will like her if she doesn’t look exactly like the skinny girls in her school, I want to shake some sense into her.  There are so many messages from not only the media, but well-meaning moms who are trying to help their daughters “fit in” and “feel good about themselves.”  Many of these women do not even realize how destructive their comments are when they tell their daughters to eat less or to “just lose a little weight so you can be on the volleyball team”.  They are giving their daughters the message that the societal ideal for female bodies is the correct one.  They are causing their daughters to believe that their own mothers’ acceptance of them is based on their appearance.  These comments do not generally improve their child’s physical health, and certainly are detrimental to their mental health.

So what can mothers do to help create a society in which girls are healthier in body and mind?  To start with, mothers can ask their daughters about the messages they receive regarding the female body.  They can share their own challenges with comparing themselves to societal ideals.  They can explore their values and those of their daughters’ regarding not only appearance, but the importance of standing up for what they believe.  So if these mothers want their daughters to believe in their own abilities, they may stress the importance of fighting back against a society that seeks to weaken their resolve.  They may ask, do you believe that women should be judged based on their appearance?  Do you think women are only beautiful if they are a size zero and have long blond hair?  Is it okay with you that these messages you receive are causing you to feel bad about yourself?  Well if not, then how can you stand up to these forces that threaten you and your confidence?

In addition to fighting back against societal forces, mothers can help their daughters by focusing on their child’s strengths and accomplishments.  It seems to me that people tend to feel more motivated when they believe in the possibility for success and recognize their own abilities.  They also tend to enjoy those relationships in which they are recognized for their efforts more than those in which they are constantly put down.  In general, I have not noticed that long-term success is created by making decisions out of fear.  So all those parents who threaten to take away the phone or the computer if their child’s grades don’t improve may be helping create temporary change, but a belief in oneself will continue to promote success throughout a lifetime.  The same goes for helping a child improve his or her physical health.  So moms that focus on what their daughters have accomplished will help them to feel more confident in making decisions that align with their values.  A focus on successes will help them to feel more empowered to set their own goals and follow through with them regardless of whether they are to lose weight, get better grades, or ask someone out on a date.

So if we ever want to create a society in which women of all sizes and races are valued, and girls feel good about themselves regardless of whether they look like models, mothers need to start interacting with their daughters in a different way.  Media cannot be blamed for all of our poor body image issues if we continue to perpetuate its messages in our homes.

Do you ever notice how people tend to focus on the negative aspects of their lives?  For example, if a teenage recently received an A on a test, she might say, “yes, but my other grades are bad.”  Or if a businessman had a positive conversation with his boss, he might say  “that’s great, but my colleague is continuing to get on my nerves”.  Time and time again, I hear my clients stress their discomfort with praising themselves.  People have somehow gotten the message that to feel good about themselves means they are conceited.  Sometimes it’s easier to praise someone else, but it is often the case that the negative is still emphasized when related to loved one’s.  I find it difficult in my work with families to get people to acknowledge what they appreciate about their child or parent.  Our society is so problem focused that we often don’t even realize there are other ways of seeing things.

So how are the “yes, but’s” impacting the quality of our lives.  Do they influence how we feel in any given moment?  Do they impact our relationships?  Our identity?  How does the negative focus influence how therapists work with clients?  What happens to the level of hope and optimism?

In my opinion, this focus on the problem is sabotaging our ability to enjoy our lives.  As a therapist, it has caused me to lose hope and feel burned out.  When all you can see is a depressed person with several years of dysfunctional relationships, low self-esteem, and a pessimistic attitude about his/her future, it is almost near impossible to maintain hope.

So I’ve decided to start focusing on the positives!  I strongly believe that people are not their problems.  A person can be taken over by depression, but she is not a depressed person at her core.  A child may be controlled by temper tantrums, but he is not an aggressive child.  A woman may be tortured by anorexia, but she is not just an anorexic.  These people and all of us have alternative storylines.  The woman suffering from depression has exhibited several incidents in which she stood up to depression.  For one, she sought out therapy in order to feel better.  She also went to work every day even when depression attempted to keep her in bed.  The child with temper tantrums came from an abusive home in which he was left alone for days at a time.  The temper tantrums allowed him to be seen and heard as a human being with needs.  The woman who had been consumed by anorexia was originally intending to gain control over her body after being sexually abused.

There is always a more positive way of seeing a situation.  With every person I’ve worked with, there have been countless examples of rebellion against the problem.  There have been many experiences in which the problems were forced into the corner or out of the room completely.  These are the stories I seek to find in everyone.  It never ceases to amaze me when I see someone so distraught over a long-standing problem with depression who smiles when she realizes that there have been times without the depression’s influence.  When she recognizes that those times have all occurred based on her strength and determination, a sense of lightness and excitement can be seen in her eyes.  Focusing on the positive may be all it takes to create a sense of hope and belief in oneself, and therefore the power to kick that problem to the curb.

Thank you for your interest in my blog.  You may be wondering who I am and why you should keep reading, so I will share a little about myself personally and professionally.  I am a Bay Area transplant from upstate New York.  I have lived in several states, cities, and countries, but now consider myself settled in The Bay.  In my free time I enjoy practicing yoga, hiking, traveling, and going out to eat with friends.  I have always had a passion for learning about other people and offering support when needed.  I believe that everyone deserves to enjoy their lives, and that obstacles within the social, physical, and internal environments can sometimes threaten this enjoyment. I decided to become a therapist so that I could help others navigate through these obstacles and accomplish whatever goals they have for their lives.  As someone who has been in therapy, I recognize the positive impact it can have on anyone with an open mind.  Unfortunately psychotherapy is often stigmatized  and thought of as a place for the weak or crazy.  I believe it is a safe space in which one can really be heard, a place to learn about yourself, an environment in which to share feelings with family members, and a place to gain power over problems and obstacles.

I have worked in a variety of settings including schools, clinics, private offices, homes, and I have even conducted therapy sessions in restaurants.  The people who I have had the privilege of working with cross all economic, racial, and cultural lines.  I have seen children who were abused and placed in the foster care system.  I have worked with adults struggling with painful relationships, and families who are feeling unable to manage a child with ongoing temper-tantrums.  Throughout these years, I have learned an incredible amount about others’ suffering.  At times the pain I have seen has threatened to overwhelm me, and I have left sessions crying and feeling hopeless.  But then I remember that strength and hope can always be found if you know where to look.  I refer back to the many joyous moments I have experienced in which relationships improve, families reunite, people gain control over their problems, and life fulfillment increases.  I feel incredibly lucky to have witnessed some of the most powerful moments in people’s lives.

This blog is my way of sharing the experiences and insights I have gained through my interactions with people of various ages and backgrounds.  In addition to all I have learned from my clients, I have been lucky to have had some fantastic supervisors and colleagues over the years who have helped me navigate this challenging profession.  Through this blog, I seek to inspire other clinicians to continue their search for hope and life satisfaction with their own clients.  I wish to share some of what I have learned about the way humans interact with themselves and others.  My goal is also to continue maintaining a dialogue about mental health so as to stay open to various perspectives, and continue being helpful to my future clients.  I recognize my knowledge as limited and know that everyone is the expert of their own lives.  I encourage you to provide as much honest feedback as you’d like, and hope that this can be an open forum for sharing experiences and perspectives.